Here Again

An addict without substance,
Rag doll in a hurricane,
I question how I see the world.
I wonder if I'm sane.

Audio up too loud,
And I can't turn it down,
Can't look away,
Mind keeps turning...

Round and round like a merry go round,
Forever going over the same old ground,
I want to get off but I find myself bound,
Destined to oscillate up and down.

Illusion of progress through time and space,
Witness obsession, just in case,
Clear my head with rounds of lead,
Only means of escape in this place.

I thought slowing down would help,
But all it's done is confound,
The writing on the wall,
While gears keep churning...

Round and round like a merry go round,
Forever going over the same old ground,
I want to get off but I find myself bound,
Destined to oscillate up and down.

People change and yet they never do,
What's clear one day is never true,
All I want is to trust in you,
Keep that first impression new.

When I was young, I thought, one day,
I wouldn't have to deal with the problems of today,
But the more I live, the more I know,
This bitter struggle won't go away.